The Dawn Chorus

Hello my name is Lydia.

I'm a 47 year old night sweat machine. I morph into a sponge that gets wringed out in the middle of the night for two weeks out of four. There's something irresistibly un-sexy about waking up with your wet dank hair attached to your cheek like a piece of modern art.

But then there is nothing vaguely sexy about entering that zone we women must all visit at some time. The zone in which you are required to hand in your former confidence, child-like energy, crystal clear memory, svelte figure and yes a dry, all night sleep.

I have just entered The Pause Zone.

I can't bring myself to buddy up with The Menopause. That would be insane. I'm not old enough.  It's a conspiracy. I mean I'm a 24 year old honey pot of fun trapped inside the body of some maniac woman who has switched her Google searches from 'Hot Thongs for Hot Weekends' to 'Wicking & The Heat Absorbing Nightie' and 'Is It Dementia?' So for now, I'm siding with the 24 year old me who thinks The Pause is a funkier and less nightmarish way to describe what is a pretty big ordeal.

I woke up this morning at 5am in my puddle of perspiration to the beautiful bird song of the dawn chorus. It's one of the few perks of The Pause I actually appreciate. In the quiet solitude I wondered how many other Pausers were out there, lying damp and contemplative whilst the rest of the house slept in a warm peaceful slumber.

Wouldn't it great, I thought, If I could share this crazy journey into The Pause if only to be able to empty my increasingly bereft mind into the open space of the web. To have that sanity check. To know and let every other Pauser know, it's ok we're not going mad (well thats a lie as quite often we are) and we're in this together.

Maybe we can walk it (if your legs aren't killing you like mine are), sweat it, swear at it, cry and laugh about it together?

In The Pause there is definitely room for conversation even if we have to turning the heating down. 

So, good morning fellow Pausers - I look forward to seeing you soon.

Lydia x